Reconciling My Old Church

I want to preface this by saying that if you're from my old church, please read the whole thing. Thank you. I've had quite the journey in my spiritual walk, and I know I'm not finished yet. Out of all of the things I've come to realize, I found that it's so hard for me … Continue reading Reconciling My Old Church

A Parable: Hot Coals

Flames and torment are for those who slip away. This man had no idea what he was getting himself into. I can't even recall what he did. Quite honestly, I don't even know if I pushed him to it. There's just something strange about him, and I need to figure out what it is. The … Continue reading A Parable: Hot Coals

A Parable: Waking Up

Get out of bed. Make your coffee. Smell your favorite candle. Feel the breeze outside and the bird's song. Enjoy this very moment. It's quite hard to do. Trust me. I try all the time to get this sorted out. For some reason, I'm quite terrible at the small things. Have you ever been to … Continue reading A Parable: Waking Up

A Parable: The Kingdom of Heaven

Wake up and smell the roses. It's the only thing in life that seems to be wholesome. The gentle moment of seeing a shooting star or the moment of hearing the rain. It all means something quite spectacular. The breeze. The Sun. The Rain. The Clouds. The Snow. The Storms. Everything. All one. I never … Continue reading A Parable: The Kingdom of Heaven

A Parable: As The Leaves Fall

There's something about the changing of seasons. The skin sheds from the serpent's back and the foxes change into their new coats. Some seasons feel cold and like the night lasts forever. The stars are covered by clouds and all we have is the pollution to breath in. Inhale. Exhale. The summers are hell and … Continue reading A Parable: As The Leaves Fall

Dear Church

Dear church, Thank you for showing me how messed up I was. I wouldn't have realized that you messed me up if your doctrine didn't tell me I was. Thank you for showing me that I can achieve anything if I die to myself. The more I die to myself, the more I'm not accepted … Continue reading Dear Church

Where Am I Now?

I've been wanting to write for a while now about where I am at in my life and where I am at spiritually. It's been some time now since I have released anything, and I've been pretty intentional with it. Any time I start to write on a topic, I can't help but see the … Continue reading Where Am I Now?

A Poem: Dear Family

Dear Family, There's a lot of you who don't like the person I have become. There's a lot of you who don't understand who I am. I've been talked down to, talked bad about behind my back, and ridiculed for who I am. Is the position you speak on from love or are you showing … Continue reading A Poem: Dear Family

A Poem: Rejection

There's a pathway that leads to rejection. It's where people think of you with objectification. I can't help but to hope that regret goes away, but I literally break myself to see joy on people's face. I can't help but to see this flame, but it's not what you think. I'm a mess, I'm rejected, … Continue reading A Poem: Rejection